I drove all over creation today and didn't even get to go look for sweaters for my trip. Traffic in Columbus was horrific (at lunchtime ) and all I wanted to do was go home.
Go home??? Jeez I'm turning into a friggin hermit.
My good friend and hairstylist gena gave me a couple pairs of jeans today and I hope they fit. Man I hope they fit. I got on the scale today and I've gained 4 lbs. what. The. Hell. I hate being fat. I hate not being active enough but just short of walking up and down my driveway I don't exercise enough. Yes. I've tried the dancing work out at home alone. Let's face it. I'm standing in front of my damn couch for shit sakes. Guess who wins every time???
I should want more for myself. I should. It's really hard when the support system I thought I had crumbled. Yeah. Woohoo go Shelly!!! Yeah. As soon as I admitted that the pills were making me sick everyone just pretty much laughed and said "I knew her fat ass couldn't do it".
Well guess what. I will do it. Even if I lost 2 lbs a week it'll be a step in the right direction. No. I'm not skinny. No. I can't wear skinny jeans (obviously) and high heels. No I can't even find a cute jacket to wear bc my arms are huge.
I still can't get out of my head what that girl said on her Facebook. " I want to be skinny and sexy not fat and gross"
You wanna know what's gross?
Skinny bitches who think us fat girls are gross. I hate people with condescending attitudes. I've seen more skinny evil bitches that I think are ugly as hell because of their attitude towards bigger people.
I am not your kicking post. I can kick your skinny ass with just one arm.
Go eat a cheeseburger and take a long walk off a short pier. Ugh.
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